SAVING GRACE
10:16:00 AM
WARNING: READ AT YOUR OWN RISK
Do you believe
in superstitions, or in Filipino, mga
kasabihan at pamahiin ng mga matatanda? Well, I will not judge you if you
do but I always thought to myself that it was just a part of our culture and it
is quite gibberish but there is one incident that made me follow the old wives’
tale…
I was around
nine years old back then and my tita, a family friend of ours, invited me to
join her children in a Jollibee day camp. It was all going well until the end
of the program, where we had to take a group photo and my tita saw something
bizarre. She saw that I had no head and all the other kids looked normal. She
showed the photo to my mom and they immediately bought me new clothes and
everything I wore that day was buried under the ground. We quickly stopped at my tita’s house and her
lola told me that she saw that my eyelids had red lines on it which totally
scared the hell out of me.
It is believed
superstitiously, when that incident happens to you, you should not go out of
your house for three days because you would be fetched by a person wearing white, a
car used for transporting people who already perished to their grave, and for short, die. My
mom said that we would not lose anything if we would follow the superstitious
belief. Better safe than sorry, so we did. I did not go out for three days and
I wore a cap the entire time, even while I am sleeping. I was not allowed to
basically do anything because something might happen to me. I avoided mirrors
as much as possible because I wanna see all of my body parts and I was completely paranoid.
Wanna read
something even creepier? On one those three days that I was at home, which
felt like a house arrest, my mom’s sister, went for a visit and she told my mom
that she dreamt of me. In her dreams, I was bidding my goodbyes and I was
wearing the exact same clothes when the incident happened. I was petrified to the point that I did not even have the appetite to eat.
Whenever I got scared, my mom would always tell me to just pray and believe in Him. She also told me that the superstition was somehow true because she knew a person who had the same experience as mine but unfortunately, died. Apparently, I also knew a person, someone close to me, had the same experience, but also passed away. Both of them did not actually know because no one told them about it.
During the first few
months, or even years, I was not comfortable sharing this story. I would always
get goosebumps, even as I am writing this, and my voice would always tremble
but now I am pretty okay with it. It has been long time but I can still clearly
recall everything that has happened.
Now, you are probably wondering what is the connection of the
pendant to this story so… On the day after it happened, my mom contacted a
friend of hers to offer a mass for me because she is a part or a member of a monastery, which was run by nuns. They also offered prayers for
me and she was the one who gave me the pendant. She attached it to a pardible
and it was always pinned on whatever clothes I was wearing.
I chose it as the
most valuable thing that I own because not only that it reminds me of one of
the most terrifying incident of my life but also because I felt like it saved
me, in a way. It has been with me for about eight years now. To be honest, It
always gets lost or misplaced but it somehow always find a way to return to me.
I personally do not think that there is anything wrong with following superstitions, most importantly between a life and death situation. I think that this experience strengthened my faith even more.
I am fortunate enough to still be here, to be writing this blog post, and for that, I am beyond grateful.
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